You took the summer off after having a bad month? You're going back in 10 days? Talk about shooting yourself in the foot, then in the other foot, then in the hand... You need to make money while the sun is shining, because we all know how the winter plays on our psyche.
Get out and take control of yourself. Your company isn't making you fail, you're making you fail. If you need to switch, then switch. This isn't time to
, so get out there and pitch... yourself. Don't lose the itch, just because you got a twitch. Whadaya think you are, rich?
Do you know what Load One is averaging to the truck nowadays? Is it a lot better than truckload rates?
Start making some calls. Find out what rates are at some of these companies. Find out what drivers are doing at these companies. Quit worrying about babysitting crap like dh and tolls. The meat and potatoes are in the rate, and the other stuff is for you to decide about before you say yes to a load.
Want a bone? No one is going to give you the location to their vein of silver, but I'll throw you a nugget. C&M Transport is one to call. Word of warning, they don't hold your hand... at least when I was there.